The feeling that I am turning 20 is sinking on me now. The word teen shall be dropped off my age in hours time. Shit! Is this what they call Quarter Life Crisis? Yes, No, perhaps. . Maybe? I'm not very certain about how I feel right now. How I feel about turning 20 or "Twenteen" as people in this situation would prefer calling it so as it won't sound really scary.
I'm upset at the same time thankful for all the things, the people, the events, that made me what I am today. But I don't think I'm ready to be 20. Like, this is the time where I'll be faced with new responsibilities, priorities and goals in life. And looking back I don't think I've been responsible enough.
I almost cried watching RPG Metanoia last night. Like that movie deliberately made me reminisce my childhood life. Now I started asking myself what I've accomplished the past 20 years of living in this dearly planet of ours? What have I contributed to the world? Who am I? LOL. Baliw lungs!!! HAHAHA!
I could say that this is the most depressing birthday ever. Like before, I would count the days until my birthday and feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world. You know those times in your life when you just needed to worry about if you have a birthday cake or not? And this time around, Oh my God! I'll be twenty (Thank you though) but the thought of being Twenty is haunting me emotionally!
I know I couldn't contemplate much about these things in my head right now because while writing this - time passes by. Minutes, seconds, milliseconds I'll be 20 and I know people would tease me about how old I have become. Fine I'm twenty! As if I could do anything. But on the brighter side, it's good to know most of my friends are older than me. Meaning, I'm ONLY TWENTEEN and. . .
#FUCKYEAHIWROTETHISWHENIWASNINETEEN!
I'm upset at the same time thankful for all the things, the people, the events, that made me what I am today. But I don't think I'm ready to be 20. Like, this is the time where I'll be faced with new responsibilities, priorities and goals in life. And looking back I don't think I've been responsible enough.
I almost cried watching RPG Metanoia last night. Like that movie deliberately made me reminisce my childhood life. Now I started asking myself what I've accomplished the past 20 years of living in this dearly planet of ours? What have I contributed to the world? Who am I? LOL. Baliw lungs!!! HAHAHA!
I could say that this is the most depressing birthday ever. Like before, I would count the days until my birthday and feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world. You know those times in your life when you just needed to worry about if you have a birthday cake or not? And this time around, Oh my God! I'll be twenty (Thank you though) but the thought of being Twenty is haunting me emotionally!
I know I couldn't contemplate much about these things in my head right now because while writing this - time passes by. Minutes, seconds, milliseconds I'll be 20 and I know people would tease me about how old I have become. Fine I'm twenty! As if I could do anything. But on the brighter side, it's good to know most of my friends are older than me. Meaning, I'm ONLY TWENTEEN and. . .
#FUCKYEAHIWROTETHISWHENIWASNINETEEN!






























